Well i figure that this would be the best place to start….. usually its at the begining but under these conditions well here we go…..

The newest of my thoughts have provoked me into fasting from tv and video games and to concentrate my time on reading THE WORD and other books with spiritual significants, as a young single in the area thats about all there is to do, i find that alot of myslef becoming more and more frustrated with God because he has put me in a place right now where none of the “mentors” in my life are very available to me.  The last time tat i met with my spiritual captin he informed me that i was about to enter a place in my life where outside growth or to put it in his words “visual growth” will stop occuring, he used a great analogy with a tree to explain it to me, he said that he was told this himself and few years ago and he is about to come out on the other side stronger then ever so hey i guess there is still hope ha ha.  Anyway the anology is a trees life cicle, in the spring, summer and fall seasons the tree continues to grow bigger and bigger, visual growth is very evident and then in the winter season the growth stops outwordly and everything is concentrates in the roots and in the branches and trunk, the strengthen and solidify and are able to take more abuse from the weather, or in our case the world, the leaves begin to fall of outward color of the tree changes a little, but all of this occurs to that the tree in the upcoming seasons will be able to support more and more outward growth.  At this moment i am in the middle of a book by Rob Bell called The Velvet Elvis.  The book is interesting to say the least, it discusses the way that the culture as a whole has manage to make a definate shape out of God and just as the church continues to reform God does also so makeing a shape of God is impossible and when we do this we are miising the whole point of what God os trying to do with us. At the start of this book it relates our spirtual lives to a trampoline and how we feed off of one another’s faith to grow higher just like when you bounce with another person if you do it just right you can jump higher and go further, there are some other anlogies such as the neeting around the outside of the trampoline and its springs and so forth but the “double bounce” was the most relevant to me bacause i have experienced it when i was younger on my own trampoline with my older brother.  Getting a little long winder so thats all for now ___:)