So yesterday i had some quality time with drew and i knew it was comin, he was pissed at me, i broke a pretty serious promise to him on tues. but luckily the breaking of that promise started one of the best days of my life.  I felt aweful for breaking the promise to him and wanted to appologize for doing it.  But it has made me think of the value of a promise, some people have friendships that rely on them, other promise me amost nothing and have no real last effect it you break them. When drew and i met i knew what i was headed into and went willingly any way.  However he brought some very deep rooted things in the person that i have become, the most painful one was about the uncoditional love that i had never got as a chilled and now as a growing man i still seek for it.  His point that he made about that was huge, he said, ” the reason why you have such a hard time with Jennifer is that you are seeking that unconditional love from her”, but trust me as i look in from the outside it was very conditional.  Um without getting to much into it, after about a half hour of him beating up my character i looked at him smiled and told him i have found that unconditional love this week, i told him that i had founf it in Jesus and that this was huge, i realized the reason that i feel so much better since tuesday was becasue jennifer over the years had given me the name “unworthy” and that was lifted  and God replace it with his name, i no longer let her own me, but let God own me like he used to and he changed my name, i honestly still can’t get over it i am just so pumped:) So i would love some advise, or feedback about this… one of my favorite people in life is i think going through menapause???? and it has changed her alot, she has went from kind and careing and loveing to mean and slefish and very irritating to be around.  I realized this about a month ago and thought that hey its a part of life and i am sure that if that is the reason for her attitude change then it is probably alot harder for her to deal with then it is me.  But being a christian women i look up to her and so i confronted her about her attitude change and how it is affecting the people around her and it is her decision to change that or not but i just wanted her to know that. she relied with, “i don’t care”.  Well as of late it has been getting alout worse, she has times of just great hang out time with me and our friends but for the most part her “bad times” are getting worse and they are lasting longer, as a boss at Sweet Mamas it have to have a listening ear to concerns for the people that work under me and the last few weeks her attitude has been getting worse anworse and everyone is getting upset with her and ruining our atmostphere that boomer and Marsha had created.  It was so bad today that this morning while working the register at work i saw this guy i used to play ball with and hadn’t seen him in probably 6 or 7 years and when i said hey to him he said ” i haven’t seen  you since the music store”, and i was like when did i see you there taken back by the comment i was definatly expecting a her man or something but instead i got something completly foreign any how she jumped in the conversation and said it was “jack Ass” and i said what and she was like the movie jack ass and i looked at him and gave one of those i don’t know looks and he returned it and went on with his breakfast.  Well i had to take the hard road and confront her about it and i was like, “ya know you and i have been here working for a few hours and he are awake and are well into the start of our day, he may have just woken up and came her for some breakfast fresh out of his bed and you started his day with ” jack ass”.  That may effect him for the rest of the day.” And she the realized i said she needed to be more cautious about that next time.  But it is stuff like that that she does on a regular basis.  I have been trying to get through this situation and explain it without saying who she is and he name, but the hard part about it that She is the owner of Sweet Mamas thats right its Marsha and that kinda changes my reaction to the situation a little sadly enough, but i am looking for advise about it, so leave some if you have some…. The burdened one